trans xennial musician belligerently nice

I love synthesizers, all sorts of music (mostly electronic), b/cult movies, science fiction, DIY, graphics design, PC hardware, retro computing (Commodore <3), cooking, singing. I’m truly sorry to anyone I have unintentionally hurt in my confusion about my identity. Love and light. Sorry I can’t talk like a normal human being btw, I’m trying.

Here’s some of my music, grateful if you’d give it a listen: https://etherphon.bandcamp.com/
https://soundcloud.com/etherphon
The stuff up there right now is a tad old, but it is some music that deals with my struggles with my realizations about my sexuality and gender, thus some of it is a little difficult and discordant. I’m working on some more joyous music. It’s 100% hardware based (synthesizers, samplers, sequencers, effects), no computer, DAW or AI involved in recording.

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  • It’s like, 90% mental, the psychedelic feeling so it’s quite difficult to explain. Of course in the movies and stuff you will see a lot of visual representation of what the trip is like, and also 90% of those are total fabrications. If you are wondering about visuals, you will usually see things like motion trails where if you wave your hand in front of your face you will see a trail left behind, like motion blur. That’s low level effects, after that things start to melt a little, your vision will be more colorful and things will twist and turn and undulate, the walls will look like they a breathing a bit, things will be be like it has a life of it’s own basically kind of like how it is in a cartoon. With mid to heavier doses you will start to see actual hallucinations which vary by user and mood and setting (which are incredibly important on a trip so keep that in mind if you are curious)

    The mental effects, uhm. I guess I would say it just feels like everything comes together? Logic melts away a bit and you are left with pure feeling, you are in touch with yourself, problems that seemed big may seem small or problems that were small may seem bigger, things of importance are turned around. Sometimes I would say it feels like your mind having sex with itself towards the peak. Physical sensations are also amplified, so touch feels extraordinary, music pours out of the speakers like a breeze coming at your face. It seems like there would be a lot of confusion but there is also a profound sense of peace if you can hold on to it. It sounds like what you got what something else. I hope it was helpful



  • hehe yeah I just don’t do well in those situations at all, doctors office and hospitals put me on edge immediately, I’m not sure if it’s the sterility of the place or what so I get it. I was (I guess?) blessed with veins that you could hit from space so I don’t have a lot of trouble with needles that way, however, I have had a life long fear of being poked in the eye by a sharp object or needle or something so every time something sharp comes out anywhere close to my eyes I twinge

    glad you got through it okay and good tip about the arm :)
    lovely not-scary day to you too! 💜