Iāve watched the first 6 episodes of this show, imo everything past episode 4 is really vague and hard to understand. Iāve read that I shouldnāt expect to understand it on my first watch but if Iām not enjoying it my first time through Iām not gonna torture myself by rewatching something I dont like a bunch of times to understand it. It also makes me feel dumb for not appreciating something deep like this, especially since itās something that youāre actually supposed to think about while watching it. Credit where credit is due, it is definitely one of the most unique anime I have seen.
It is not that deep, really. It is almost impossible to understand on a first watchthrough because all context for what is happening is only given towards the very end, so it just looks like a mess. On second watch it should be more understandable, but if you did not enjoy it the first time you wouldnāt the second time either, and you donāt really lose much by not doing it. Just watch a video essay about dissociative disorder in media or something if you want to watch something with meaning.