I realised I did too much LSD when I had āboring tripsā.
They were the most bizarre. I felt in my mind that I already got the answers I needed, to better myself, and so for several hours I had visuals whilst feeling otherwise sober. Just waiting for it to pass. Occasionally looking at my hand to see if Iām still tripping.
Everything tested properly and obtained from sources I wonāt name.I felt the same on a few trips since. Although it is a positive to feel that way. Itās reassuring that Iām on the right path, moving by my own accord, yet I do wish psychedelics were fun again. Maybe when Iām much older, as I have zero intention of doing them.
30+ trips is enough though, I reckon.
Thatās the thing Iāve heard so many times about acid: that it tells you when youāre done. I havenāt hit that point and Iām not likely to as itās been longer since my most recent trip than between it and my first, and I only stopped because I realized my trip buddy/dealer was in love with me (great acid revelation, best thing you could learn while stuck in a room with someone).
But yeah boring trips are like deciding hookups arenāt fun anymore. Itās not that itās bad to do the thing, or even that it wasnāt for you. Itās that youāve grown past that stage of your life. Maybe for now, maybe forever. Growth is to be celebrated, but itās also OK to mourn the end of an enjoyable stage
