Agreed. I have an anger problem and I hate it. I can remain calm if I’m prepared for it, but if something takes me off gaurd (or I reach peek frustration) I react before I have time to think.
It’s super annoying, often embarrassing, and the worst of me. It’s like things start happening and my hire-order thinking is just straight-up offline until I’ve said something horrible, stormed off, or thrown something like a toddler. It’s like I have to struggle to catch up to what my body is doing
The only blessing is that I’m physically weak as shit, (and I married a strong man who is chill/non-reactive)
I wish I could rewire my instinct to fight out of me, but meditation makes me fall asleep
I can sympathize. Here’s a video that I found useful. I work on this daily. Some days I excel and other days I fall short. I think of myself as a rage addict and when I fall off the wagon. I try to reflect, not get angry with myself (because that’s just feeding the addiction), and get back on track. It’s a constant struggle.
Agreed. I have an anger problem and I hate it. I can remain calm if I’m prepared for it, but if something takes me off gaurd (or I reach peek frustration) I react before I have time to think.
It’s super annoying, often embarrassing, and the worst of me. It’s like things start happening and my hire-order thinking is just straight-up offline until I’ve said something horrible, stormed off, or thrown something like a toddler. It’s like I have to struggle to catch up to what my body is doing
The only blessing is that I’m physically weak as shit, (and I married a strong man who is chill/non-reactive)
I wish I could rewire my instinct to fight out of me, but meditation makes me fall asleep
any kind of neurodivergent diagnosis? Anger issues happen to most of us I’m afraid.
ADHD- combined tyoe
I can sympathize. Here’s a video that I found useful. I work on this daily. Some days I excel and other days I fall short. I think of myself as a rage addict and when I fall off the wagon. I try to reflect, not get angry with myself (because that’s just feeding the addiction), and get back on track. It’s a constant struggle.